I hate prom. i hate it with all my life. i do i do i do. i hate prom. i fucking hate everything that surrounds it. i wish we didn't have to deal with it. i don't want to go. but i will. i will go. i just hate it so much. i hate hearing about it. i hate people asking about it. i just hate it. I hate that no one uses xanga anymore. i hate that middle schoolers are the only ones that use it. I hate school. I am ready for it to be over with. I hate the fact that I cannot sleep at night. I hate that I am really hot right now and uncomfortable. I hate not being able to sleep when I really need to. I hate not being invited to things anymore. I hate not being myself anymore. I feel like shit all of the time when I really have no reason to. I hate that dreams don't really come true. No matter how hard you try, not all of them come true. I hate how I always feel so dumb and juvinille. I feel pathetic and stupid. I feel like a virgin at everything. I feel like I haven't experienced anything. I hate that feeling. I hate that no one listens to me. I hate that I am always the listener. I hate not being equaly listened to. I hate putting myself out there and no one caring. I hate thinking that no one cares when I know they do. I hate not being able to go for it. I hate being so fucking shy. I hate it. I hate being broke. I hate not having a good paying job. I hate acting like everything is ok. I hate not knowing why I'm not okay. I hate being depressed for no fucking reason. I hate hating. -jessica | 
